I hate roller coasters

I dont know what is going on with me for the last few days. For months I have been doing really, really good. I had accepted everything with Miles, and was looking forward to having our next baby (not for a little while). But the last few days I have felt kinda sad. I just miss him and want to hold him. Last week I was able to talk to a friend who lost her baby 2 years ago and it just felt good to talk to someone who just knows, without having to explain, what it's like to lose a baby. It was nice because she didn't say, "well, it could be worse" or, "someone always has it worse", or any other saying people say. Not that I dont totally agree with those statements, but usuaally if I am expressing my feelings about being sad about it, it usually means I just want to vent and dont want to hear those things. So it was great to talk to her. Then over the weekend, I just got really sad. I want Miles to be here!!!!! I know he's safe, I know he's perfect, I know I will see him again, but dang it! Why does everyone else get to have their babies here? Why do they get to take gazillions of pics of their babies? Why do they get to hear them laugh, see them walk, and I dont? And then I remember...........because Miles was too perfect for this world, and I probably accepted this trial before I came to earth. What was I thinking? :) Then one of my best friends, who had pre-mie twins a year ago had a huge birthday bash for them on Monday and i didn't go. I feel really bad about this, but I just couldn't do it. I absolutely LOVE those babies and I am SOOO glad that they made it and overcame all the obsticles they had. But I just couldn't go. (Sorry Kristin). I am still feeling a little sad today, but I think I am back on the rise again because of 3 things. #1. Monday night I had the most wonderful dream!!! I dreamt that i was in the hospital, in the same room where I was when i had Miles, but I went into the hallway to show the nurses my beautiful, healthy baby girl. No problems, no NICU, no nothing! Just a beautiful healthy baby girl that I was taking home with me! I remember telling the nurses that I thought going back to the hospital to have another baby would be a lot harder than it was. I woke up and told Mark my dream and the first thing he said was, "maybe Heavenly Father is trying to tell you everything will be okay with your next pregnancy". Music to my ears!!! But then he said, "or maybe it was just a dream, who knows". That made me a little sad, but whatever it was, I felt way better!!!!! #2. I was talking to a girl I work with, Heather, who is all into healthy stuff and she told me she drank this herbal tea called raspberry leaf tea (or something like that) her whole pregnancy and it's supposed to make the sac thicker or something so it wont break. She said when she went to have her baby, the doc had to break her water because it was so thick it wouldn't break on it's own. Also music to my ears!!!!! You better believe I am drinking gallons of that when I'm preggo! #3. Also yesterday, a client at the salon told me her daughter also had her water break early at like 21 weeks. Thankfully her baby made it, but her daughter went on to have 2 more babies, with NO problems!!! Ahhhh! Happy day! i love hearing things like that. So even though I have had a few downer days, I am starting to feel good again.

The last 3 weeks

Over the last 3 weeks, a lot has happened in our lives. Most recently, my mission president and fam got off their mission. President and Sister Newman came to Arizona to visit all their AZ missionaries. It was a great night!!! I hadn't been that excited for anything in a long time!!!

Here is Elder Akers, me, President Newman, Sister Gunn, and Elder Harvey

Sister Newman, me, Elder Harvey, Sister Dunn (who is from Utah but was in town!), Sister GunnMe, Elder Harvey, Sister Dunn, Sister Gunn

me, Dunn, and Gunn......we were a threesome my last transfer. Everyone would call us Gunn, Dunn, and Funn!!!! ha ha

Sister Gunn, Mark, me, Pres. Newman, Elder Healey and his wife just talking! It was so good to see everyone and talk about the mission days!!!

4th of July weekend we went to the Dahl family reunion. It was so much fun! It was with my Grandpa Dahl, His wife Phyllis, my dad , all his bro's and sis, their kids, and their kids! We stayed in 3 cabins on Hawley lake up in northern AZ. It was a much needed relaxing weekend!!

Here is my dad and his bro's singing a song called "Mormon Boy" that they sand in sacrament mtg, as kids at our "talent" show. Dave, Greg, John, my dad (Sam)

On the 4th we got paired up and made rockets and launched them. Me and my dad were partners and here is our lovely rocket.

Mark and my aunt Paula got paired together. Here is them and their rocket. It was so much fun launching them!

These are out of order but me, Mark, and my cousin Shane went out on the lake to fish. Here is my fish!!!

My bro Aaron, sis-in-law Allie, and Bro Taylor on the other boat!

I hate this pic, I look so gross, but I had to show me in action!!!!

Here's my hubby chilaxin' listening to music

My cute Grandpa relaxing on the shore!

My cousin Heidi, her husband Steve, me, my aunt Lorraine squished on the couch.

On July 1st......my cousin Natalie, my cousin Heidi, and my aunt Paula came into town. Paula took us all to get pedicures! It was fun!! Then we saw.................................................

Guess...............yup! We saw Wicked!!!!! It was sooooo Good!!!! I cant wait to see it again!!! here is my mom, me, sis-in-law Allie and my cousin Heather! (Paula, Natalie, and Heidi were closer than us).

Here is everyone. Sorry, it's so blurry!!!! Obviously, I am no photographer!!!!

Me and Heidi

Afterwards I got to meet Elphiba (the main character)!!!!! She did so good! What a fun night!!!!

Then......the weekend before the 4th, we went on the annual Huston family campout!!!! It was also so fun!!!! Here i am roasting a marshmallow!!!! (with my bro-in-lawsRuss and Kent and my niece Bianca).

Here is my niece Gracie eating her huge pink marshmallow!!!!

My sis-in-law Angie, niece Anna, nephew Melvin, and niece Vaeh

Russ and Mark relaxing

Gracie not wanting me to take her picture.

Our nieces and nephews Vaeh, Marie, Anna, William, and Gracie, just about to decorate cupcakes my mother-in-law brought for my birthday!!!! Camping was so fun! I wish I had more pics of camping, we even went to the creek a couple times and forgot my camera. Bummer. Oh well. The last 3 weeks were so much fun!!!!

Happy Birthday to me!!!

Well it was 2 weeks ago, but on June 24th, I turned 26. I dont know how to feel about that. If you were to round the number 26, it rounds to 30!!! I'm just not ready to be 30 yet. At least I have 4 more years to get used to the idea. Anyway, it was a great b-day! I went to lunch with friends, saw Transformers (thanks for the porn show!) and the Proposal, went shopping, and ate at In-and-Out burger! IT was a great day. I didn't take any pics that day, (I dont know what I was thinking!) so instead, I thought I would tell you 26 random things about myself.

1. I hate brushing my teeth.....dont worry I still do it though. :) When I was pregnant I threw up every time I brushed so it just made me hate doing it.
2. I got a scholarship when I was 16 for playing the piano.....okay so dont be too impressed, it was only for $50 and I blew it taking a guy to MORP. But still...
3. My calling in the church right now is a Young Women's leader, but it doesn't have a specific name, I'm just an extra leader. Weird, I know.
4. On my mission, I took President Hinckley's son on a tour. He is really nice. Go figure, he is the son of a prophet.
5. I won a hair show when I was in beauty school.
6. I LOVE LOVE LOVE tomatoes!!
7. I love making crafty things, but I dont do it a lot because it also stresses me out a lot
8. I once saw David Spade in the airport. He is way shorter than you think...seriously
9. My favorite movie is Pride and Prejudice.....the newest one
10. I really want to learn to play the violin......so much that Mark bought me one when we were dating! Someday....
11. If I ever went back to school, I would be a nurse...either in antepartum, labor and delivery, or NICU.
12. I have been skydiving
13. I have lived in AZ most of my life but had never been to the Grand Canyon, until I was 22.
14. I think I'm ALMOST ready for another baby. I said........ALMOST!
15. I love old things
16. My favorite color is yellow
17. I met and talked to Elder Bednar on my mission, I'm pretty sure I'm taller than him because I was looking down to him. But I could have had tall shoes on. I cant remember.
18. I don't neccisarily have a favorite band or singer, I like way too many, but right now I am really into Death Cab for Cutie and Kings of Leon.
19. I got proposed to on my mission! Funny story......maybe a post one day :)
20. Weird I know, but I'm not too into roses, I LOVE bright colored flowers
21. I am VERY afraid of the dark.....even in my own house.
22. I was in Student Council in high school and loved every minute of it.......Mark says I'm a dork for that..
23. I went to basketball camp when I was 12....it didn't really catch on.....unfortunately.
24. I LOVE jewlery!
25. I knew I wanted to marry Mark after 1 week of dating.....but we didn't get married for 2 1/2 years!
26. I LOVE diet coke.......but I went off it last week.....:(

So.....here are some random things about me. While trying to come up with this list, I realized I am pretty boring!!! It was fun to remember a lot of this stuff though. oh....and lots has happened in the last 2 weeks, but I will blog about them later!!!! Ta ta for now!!!!